Mind Games

An old crush said I should have told her how I felt,
That made me feel like whipping myself with a belt.
I blamed myself and just couldn’t forgive myself,
Because she said she felt the same way herself.


My question is, did she actually feel the same way,
Or is she just looking for a mind game to play?
Would she have reacted positively like she said,
Or was she just trying to mess with my head?


If she knew, she would have eventually said NO,
Why did she insist I should have made her know?
Is it just for the pleasure of hearing me flow,
Or is she just trying to make her self-esteem grow?


Playing with my emotions isn’t just right,
That is injustice at its highest height,
Toying with my feelings is just so wrong,
My heart sure doesn’t look like ping pong.


Why not let your No be No, and Yes be Yes,
And Stop playing me like a game of chess.
In my own rights, I deserve some respect,
Because I love you doesn’t make me your subject.


What you show is not only an act of immaturity,
It is a show of your ignorance and insecurity.
It is better you learn how to grow up,
Than messing my affectionate mind up.


What made me so stupid to have told you my mind,
Could it have been love that made me that blind?
With you I’ve always been sweet, gentle and kind,
Looking for love, now its shame and regrets I find.


But remember what goes around comes back around,
Don’t cry when you turn the victim next time around.
You will surely pay for all the damage you’ve done to me,
And to think of it, someone like you doesn’t deserve me.


© DK, October 2009